Heh, sorry.
So, what's new? Eeeeehhh... I dunno. I guess I'm trying to limit myself right now as to how strongly I feel about any & every thing. Time to relax maybe. Been meditating a little and trying to figure out who I am. Still have not come to a conclusion, but I'll get there, ya know?
I love Meggan more than anything, but to what extent do I murder myself over it? Can I do it forever or do I try to find my escape? I wish I knew.... I don't even know where or what my escape is yet. I think about her day in and day out. How do I cope with it, or better yet, stop doing it? No idea.
Right now, I feel like it'll never end, but I have been feeling good because she seems to be finally setteling down and treating me good in the whole 'friends' relationship and not being so distant. I've probobly annoyed her with all my simple questions, but I'n grasping to find where she stands, where I stand and what's real in our world. I miss her really bad. I can sit inches away from her and stiull miss her. Sometimes I feel she misses me... she's not really too excited to answer questions like that, but I know we've been through alot and it has to count for something in life if not love. I'm not stressing anything or expecting anything, I just keep hope alive.
If you read this, thank you Meggan. I love you
~KM
Saturday, October 4, 2008
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