Well, after yesterdays unexpected visit from the police, I was carted off to jail for a nights stay on the grounds that I violated the terms of the "PPO" my wife has against me. That's all whatever. I don't know why she did it, but she did and its in the past. I guess in her eyes, we're back to square one, where I'm evil, having done nothing but love her, and she is godly, having done little other that twist my mind around and hurt me. I said here once that my love is unconditional. I ment it. I still love her without restriction and always will. If this isn't proof of unconditional love, I don't know what is.
I hold no grudges against Meggan, I have no hard feelings over any events and I still love her more than anything. Yeah, my life is pretty messed up and I doubt I'll ever get "back on my feet" without her, but hey, I still have love, and with love comes hope. "Hope for what?" you might say. "She sent you to jail, isn't that enough?" you may ask. But saddly, I can not turn my back on her. Alot of people ask me why I still wear my wedding band. The reason is simple. I love her, our bond ment something to me & always will. Reguardless of if it was just a game to her, it was my life and it will always be a part of my life.
I don't know what else to say, and I REALLY don't know what to expect from here on out, but I will not lose my hope. If I did, it would be a horrible thing, so I have to keep on keepin' on.
~KM
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I am sorry to say but she is playing you. You deserve so much better. She knows how to hurt you and she is doing it. Best thing to do is forget about her and move on. Concentrate on the kids. Even though she will use them to get what she wants from you.
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